Something new

As most who have read a part of this blog has discovered, here has a lot more to do with what I think, feel and experience that gets put down here, no less today will be no different.

I'm currently at the office, it is lunch, and the rest of the team is out and about. Rob and Kieran (Irish guy who'll be taking tomorrow off because of St. Patrick's day) are somewhere I think in the building having a little sit down and meeting, most likely actually about me, and I think Paul is out somewhere else.

How do I feel ? At this moment in time ( and for most of the week that's been past), the sensation is that of drowning. I don't know the CMS (content management system) that ITV has bought and is paying support for, although I am working through the manual on how to handle it and have had a hands-on explination of it from Paul about how the crux of it works. To be brutally honest I'm not up to speed with server side JavaScript, but that's not really a problem as I know that it is very easy to actually pick up, and I have been able to do some coding in it while being here.

The overriding feeling over all of this is that feeling everyone gets in the 1st week of : I know my stuff, I know how to do what I used to do, but they do it differently here. I put down the 1st week as being one of those where I'd have to get use to how they do things here, how their CMS works and how I would then code inside of it. How's that going ? Not to badly, the more I read the more I feel comfy knowning I'll be able to do this. What has always bugged me is that feeling that I get that I want to know NOW how to do everything that I need to be able to do, and it just doesn't work that way... [I can see a lot of people thinking : "Duh! Zodan, that's life, you can't just expect to know how to ride a bike the 1st time you get on it and think.. well it's all about balance and leg work."].

Tend to think it's the persona in me that wishes to learn and over-achieve that is driving this feeling of "Come on man, get going in this, you aint stupid, you know you are a fairly bright spark.. go go go".

Think I'm going to read some more, although even doing that makes me edgy because I'm not much of a manual reader than I am a "go-fiddle-with-things and see how they break"-kind of person.

I want to get my hands in the code and get dirty.. quickly, cause I want to start to make a difference. I love getting instant gratification on being a positive influence ( stems from wanting everyone to like me, which over the years has gotten better, although I still know some places where I'm not in the favourites section of the little black book). I love learning, I just don't like that in my case it always feels as if I'm taking to long doing it and getting my mind around it all.

I leave you with on a positive thought : Change is a great teacher, embrace the teachings and life will only better for it :)

over and out for now.
Z