Personal wants...

Howdy again. You might think, sheesh, two posts in one day.. but if I have my way this will be a short one.. heck, who am I trying to kid, I never write short posts.

Actually, the previous post puts it really well : I want to be making a positive contribution already. I think this is the only time that I don't like having to learn something new, when it takes longer to learn something so that I can have a positive contribution to the working enviroment around me. I have always been striving to add good value to all things that I do, and to all the people that interact in my life and those who I feel are really close to my heart.

It just is one of the big things that drives me in life, and when something that really pushes you forward so much doesn't get furfilled [typo galories :)] it all just seems a little.. hurtful I suppose.

My brother says I put to much pressure on myself to perform, and I suspect that he is most likely correct as well, asked my fellow developer today how long it took him to get to grips with the system that I'm learning, and from the answer I got he took a fair while to get to grips with it in totality, and he was a com-sci degree guy. So technically I shouldn't be so hard on my self, but I drive myself by being hard on myself.

You know what... it's going to be better in the morning, I'm going to hit the hay and start tomorrow nice and early.. for a change.

Greets to all.
Z